How have you been A.

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How have you been, A.
Still in distress until today, you ignored me without explaining a word.

​​Upset, but never was I mad at you.
IDK. What happened in between? 

I'm just trying to move on from all of this. I cared for you A, I never called or bugged you during your work because of the not-so-strong-internet coverage, different working hours, but I endure because I know your nature of job.

You promised to see me as soon as you came back. I waited for you to come home. I trusted you & I realised now that was a mistake. But its too late now.

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I feel like I've lost a friend. A friend I could tell anything about.
Who do I tell my sometimes-sucky-work to? or my beautiful morning breakfast?​

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W​e shared a lot of things together. I still feel we could have been something. But I know its too late now.
 

I questioned myself each day A, why ​was it her that you chose?​

I hope one day you'll come to your senses and explain to me.

But in case not, you're not the person I thought you were.

Good luck in life, A.

I'll never forget you, thanks for being part of my life.

 

I missed you. everyday.

(remember you said the same thing to me?)​

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​yours forever faithful.

the girl you really hurt.

 

 

J.K

1. What a great unplanned weekend I had. This post only came out today (a Friday) as I was really busy with this incoming rig that I caught myself a few times forgetting to go to the loo.
2. Idk how to describe how Saturday Midnight to Sunday Evening was, but it was one hell of a feeling.
3. One thing is for sure, this is not falling on the idea of love, but I think I'm in love.
4. But it left me with this curiosity on a girl named J, who called him twice straight. Could it be it? Another girl he is seeing at the moment? IDK.
6. But the signals he is giving.
7. Could this be one of those moments where He wants you to get hints ? Him. Showing His signs.
8. I wish I can explain this situation, let alone decide what I should do.

Till then.
Tootles.

Self-Help Articles / Posts

The thing about self-help articles is that, you can very much relate your situation with the people who comment and share their stories there.
Their experiences help us through click with ours. They speak a language only we understand because everyone is going through the same feelings, at different levels and situation.

Sometimes, their stories are even worse than ours, but it doesn't kill the fact that well, it hurts.

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'And the worst of it all was that you weren't able to make him happy even though you did your best to make him feel special...' - Anonymous

What good is living, if your presence have no impact on another human being

This is where I'm reaching out one of those memory box in my head and thinking about it.
The closest thing to the subject.

I remember when my ex-bf told me he wanted me back, one of the reasons he said was ; I've become
another person since I met you, you've changed a part of me, and I've changed for the better
person in me.

I was touched.
But it didn't make me stay.
I don't know why. It just felt that way.

If you bring out the best in someone even if he's not gonna be with you through the end, at least he can be the best for the next person / or the person he is in love with now, even if it's not you.

Why

Have you ever felt that as though the world is turning back on you.

Please give me strength. 

Choices

Choices. 

You make choices everyday. 

The ones you make today will effect what will you turn out to be in future. 

The ones you made yesterday is the outcome of today.

So choose wisely. 

I chose to give attention on things that matter most now and the priorities. 

I chose to be happy. I chose not to be with anyone to make me happy. 

I have to be happy on my own and love myself only then to share it with someone else. 

I want to start something new, turnover a new leaf for a new year. 

Bismillah. 

Super Relieved

So, Mum said I had too much clothes. I didn't believe it at first because I had 2 wardrobes. One in my real home and the second one in Puncak Alam ( Rental House). I just started realizing it when I brought home all my clothes and took out everything out from the luggage. Quite surprising I must say because I keep wearing the same clothes every time I go out. *We all have that favorite shirt we always wear. Please say you can relate to what I'm saying*

So I decided that today I'm going to do some 'spring clean' to my wardrobe. Giving away the ones that are too small that when I wear makes me look like I'm wearing my nieces t-shirt, the ones that makes me look like granny Elaine most of them are the vintage ones that I thought was cool to be wearing but eventually not, and the ones which I feel uncomfortable wearing thick wool fabrics because yes, I am living in a tropical weather country. I don't need to be all warm.

Got tips from Oprah's show the other day. Saying :
If you don't wear a certain clothes in 3 months time, it means you're not going to wear it at all.

So every time I pull out a piece, I try to remember when was the last time I wore it. If it was more than 3 months ago, that piece, has got to go. 

Since I was planning to give away the clothes and not throwing them away, I didn't really think much about 'giving' which used to be my favorite pieces because I know they will land in good hands or to those who will appreciate it more than I do.
After hours of cleaning. Guess what? It all came up to 4 medium sized plastic bags. *what a load*
Only now I believe what Mum was trying to say. I did have too much clothes I don't wear.

It feels good to see your closet clean and simple. You should try it too. Who knows, you might find your long lost favorite sweater that you accused your sister had stolen it from you 2 years ago. Hi hi.


p/s: There is a possibility I might be going shopping since some pieces I found don't match. Teehee.

Welcoming February

February comes from the word Februum which means Purification.

Therefore I am purifying myself for this month. But what shall I purify? U do not need to know that. I'll just keep that to myself.

What is interesting is that this year in February we have 29 days. Calls for a special date ayy?
Therefore, I challenge myself to do something crazy on this day. Well, maybe not as crazy but something different maybe than what I usually do.

Let's say I go on a date on that 29th, if it turns out bad. I have the next 4 years to recall that bad day. Hah!
But if it turns out to be a great date, well then, good for me.  The next date will be in 4 years time. *Gulp.


Anyway, I have a good feeling I'm going to enjoy February as much as you people will do.
InsyaAllah a better start. quit the laziness. read a book and finish it. and continue baking when bored. Oh and what else, yes, exercise more often.

Till then, Toodles.

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